Last Night

So I went to the circus last night for the littlest ones birthday. It was sorta fun. My aunt made me ignore Shane all night, which made him mad. I felt bad about it all night ignoring him like that it just added to how bad I felt about Shane. And to make it worse I had a horrible dream, Shane and I were at this party of sorts and we adopted a puppy I lost the puppy. So we spilt up to find him. He was hidden in the corner. I went to go meet up with him and took a side hallway . A woman who I guess was in charge. And she told me to clear out find a side room and hide until told otherwise. With knowing that Shane was out there I wanted to make sure he was ok, so I fought the crowd of frightened people and screaming Shane. Someone trying to calm me down said "Hun, it's Shane." I couldn't calm down at that I couldn't figure if he was the cause of this chaos or is suffering from it. Which made me scream more. I just kept running and running to find him. 

Shane...

So I'm sitting here watching Netflix and I just got done talking to the boyfriend, (Shane) we talk at every chance we get. Well Sam (the ex) messages me, we talk a lot, and says hey beautiful just got your message I had no service all day. Is that bad that I allow him to call me besutiful?? Ugh, see if he lived closer we might even be together. He's a rapper isn't that bad? I broke up with him after he wrote me a rap on having sex with me. We never had sex. He's going to write me a new one he says he needs inspiration and he'll make a video when I break up with Shane. I love Shane I think. I feel I'm leading him on we have no future, or maybe we do but I'm too young to think that far ahead. If anyone ever does read this id love some advice here?

Well here's to my first blog, I honestly don't expect anyone to ever read this. Just in case everyone in my everyday life will have code names. (Kinda like I'm surrounded by spies, from some "b rated" movie)